I was, and I'd do it again it meant saving innocent lives, but that's not exactly a comfort.
[ Arthur knows he's hurt people that didn't deserve it before - or rather, that only deserved it out of an indiscriminate fear that he doesn't even entirely buy into - but this is different on a thousand different levels, and not different at all at the same time. For all the time he's spent questioning his actions, it seems his time here is spent questioning those questions, and it's nearly unbearable.
But this isn't about him. This was never about him and it shouldn't be about him, because he isn't the one that was wronged. The blood is on his hands and he'll bear that mark forever, but the loss shows on Merlin's where there is nothing in his hands at all.
Because Arthur took it. And Merlin will bear that forever. ]
no subject
I was, and I'd do it again it meant saving innocent lives, but that's not exactly a comfort.
[ Arthur knows he's hurt people that didn't deserve it before - or rather, that only deserved it out of an indiscriminate fear that he doesn't even entirely buy into - but this is different on a thousand different levels, and not different at all at the same time. For all the time he's spent questioning his actions, it seems his time here is spent questioning those questions, and it's nearly unbearable.
But this isn't about him. This was never about him and it shouldn't be about him, because he isn't the one that was wronged. The blood is on his hands and he'll bear that mark forever, but the loss shows on Merlin's where there is nothing in his hands at all.
Because Arthur took it. And Merlin will bear that forever. ]
Did you love her? Or - I suppose, do you still?